Over and over throughout the past two weeks God keeps bringing Matthew 17:20 to mind. One small word with such big meaning...FAITH. I've seen numerous people make anograms out of this word such as:
F-orsaking
A-ll
I-
T-ake/rust
H-im
It isn't easy some days when it feels like your ship is sinking. It's late June and still no job for Sean. Questions flood my mind...is it his age? What he said? How he looked? Why God can't He find a job? When Lord are you going to come to our rescue? Questions, lots of them and they are yet to be answered. So we wait some more on the very One who hasn't let us down. It's hard to ignore the storm that's raging and keep fixing my eyes on Jesus. It's really hard.
Bills still come in and are expected to be paid, life is happening all around us and yet we WAIT..WAIT WAIT WAIT WAIT and WAIT some more. To say the least I am beyond frustrated, tired, discouraged and yet He bids me to trust Him and to have Mustard seed faith. My faith-o-meter is on zero I must admit.
It's tough when you become the bread winner of your household and it all lies on your shoulders. It's just tough and we need lots of prayer.
These days are tough. Summer is supposed to be fun and I am not having fun. I am merely existing in this huge waiting room waiting on God to call my name and show up and do something. Until then I hold on with little faith.
If you think about it pray for us because I can't even pray right now. Words won't even come.
Continuing to WAIT,
Alicia
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