He's Always on Time!!!

Well it's month 5 in this journey of trusting God.  In my own human frailty I'm weak.  There've been days on this journey where I've been down right frustrated, sad, mad, angry, and any other feeling/emotion you can throw in there.  There are days where Satan has had a hay day with me.  There are some things that have gone to the wayside that never should have such as reading my Bible every single day.  I'll have to confess that on this journey some days I've been merely existing with several emergency room prayers to God.  However, I've always told God that I knew he was our Jehovah Jireh and that I knew He would provide even when I didn't know how or see how it was humanly possible.  I told God we would still tithe even when we couldn't see where the money would come from for simple daily provisions.  Would you like to know the result of those prayers?

Let me begin by saying that God has provided me with a new job in the medical field.  I'm only 3 weeks in and love it!  Yes, there's more money but more importantly I have Sundays off so I can go to church and worship God on His day and not have to rush to go home to eat and head for work.  I have a majority of my weekends off and my holidays as well.  That means more time with my son and husband!  

Sean has recently accepted a part time job.  He hasn't started yet so I won't give you specifics, but he's employed. God paved the way for this job and we are grateful.  In time, His time God will provide Sean with a full-time job, but for now it's God's provision and we are thankful

Remember that prayer about tithing that I prayed to God?!!!  Well, let's just say if you did the math IT DOESN'T ADD UP.  God has provided for us every step of the way.  We've not missed a bill at all! We've had food on our table and we haven't gone without.  Now did it get scary at times.  YES, YES, YES!!!!  

Our journey isn't over yet, and on this side of Heaven it will never be.  We are soujourners on this mission called trusting God and just when you think He's forgotten you, He shows up.  He's never too early, never too late, but always right on time!

In His unfailing love,

Alicia Roark 

Mustard Seed Faith...Hurry Up and WAIT.

Over and over throughout the past two weeks God keeps bringing Matthew 17:20 to mind.  One small word with such big meaning...FAITH.  I've seen numerous people make anograms out of this word such as:

F-orsaking

A-ll

I-

T-ake/rust 

H-im

It isn't easy some days when it feels like your ship is sinking.  It's late June and still no job for Sean.  Questions flood my mind...is it his age? What he said?  How he looked?  Why God can't He find a job?  When Lord are you going to come to our rescue?  Questions, lots of them and they are yet to be answered.  So we wait some more on the very One who hasn't let us down.  It's hard to ignore the storm that's raging and keep fixing my eyes on Jesus.  It's really hard.  

Bills still come in and are expected to be paid, life is happening all around us and yet we WAIT..WAIT WAIT WAIT WAIT and WAIT some more.  To say the least I am beyond frustrated, tired, discouraged and yet He bids me to trust Him and to have Mustard seed faith.  My faith-o-meter is on zero I must admit.  

It's tough when you become the bread winner of your household and it all lies on your shoulders.  It's just tough and we need lots of prayer.  

These days are tough.  Summer is supposed to be fun and I am not having fun.  I am merely existing in this huge waiting room waiting on God to call my name and show up and do something.  Until then I hold on with little faith.  

If you think about it pray for us because I can't even pray right now.  Words won't even come.

Continuing to WAIT,

Alicia

He pilots my Ship!

We are in thick of this thing called Trusting God.  It's June.  The two jobs that seemed very promising have come and gone.  Other candidates were chosen.  In my human frailty it's tough to not to look at the situation and fret.

Just yesterday on the way to work I prayed and told God exactly how I was feeling.  I was brutally honest.  He simply whispered promises from His word.  I cling to them with every ounce that I have.  He's faithful even when I can't see what He's doing or what His plan is.  He's God and I am not.

My favorite part about about God is that He answers when we call.  There've been days of recent where I've texted friends, called them, and they don't answer or don't text me back.  Their numbers are current.  I'm reminded though that humans will fail me but God will never fail me.  He's always there and that brings me comfort on many levels even in the thick of it all.

I call this journey Uncertainty.  Jesus is the pilot of this ship.  If I took control let me tell you I'd mess it all up in about 2 seconds flat.  The waves seem high, the storm seems to wage undendingly but He is the master of the wind.  He pilots my ship.  I have to trust Him.  I have no choice.  He has a plan although it's very exhausting waiting on him.  Do I get down?  You bet but I can't stay there.  Sean can't stay there.  We must trust the captain of our ship to guide us.  He's never gotten us lost, led us astray, or abandoned us.  He pilots our ship.

Trusting God day by day,

Alicia Roark

Some not so good news! Trusting God.

I feel led by God to do something completely out of my comfort zone!  I'm going to open up the door of my home (virtually) and let you journey with me and my husband as we answer the question, Can you really trust God?

Why?  Well, I must tell you how this came about for you to completely understand.  First of all we are Christians by our faith.  God is our foundation, rock, and provider.  He is who we trust and we are facing a scenario of really trusting Him to provide for our every need.  No, I won't be airing out our dirty laundry.  That's not a good thing.  I'll be letting you in on how we are trusting God and how God provides though.

What's the scenario?  I thought you'd never ask!  Just two days after our son was born Sean got a new job as an Assistant Manager at Kirkland's Outlet here in Williamsburg, VA.  Well, it was a nice pay raise and a promotion!  We were both excited.  All was well until about two weeks ago when one morning he asked, "How was your day yesterday?"  I replied, "Great, and yours?"  He said, "Remember when I told you a strange guy came in our store and was measuring it a few weeks ago?"  I said, "Uh huh."  He said, "I didn't want to disturb your sleep, so I waited til this morning to tell you....What I heard next I never saw coming, neither did he much less their entire staff.  He said, "Kirkland's isn't renewing their lease and by the end of April we'll all be out of jobs."  I sighed.

Well, April is fast approaching and so I've decided to give everybody Christians and non-Christians a look into our real world to see if you can really trust God.  I'll share a bible verse, and prayer each blog.

So, as we journey, I also will be making a committment to remain joyful.  You're gonna do what Alicia?  Remain Joyful?!!!  Trust me, it's not easy, but I will be doing my very best to remain joyful.

Come journey along with me.  Invite your friends...Christians and non-Christians along as I answer the question...Can You REALLY trust God!

Today's Verse:  Trust in the Lord with all thine heart and lean not unto thine own understanding.  In all your ways acknowlege Him and He will direct thy paths.  Proverbs 3:5-6

Today's Prayer:  Dear Lord, I don't know what the furture holds for us.  It's unnverving not knowing, but you're God and you don't need my help.  God, help us to fight back with Joy as we journey through these next months.  Make yourself abundantly clear.  Show us what to do on days when it gets hard.  God, we place our complete trust in you!  You're our Rock, Redeemer, Friend, and provider.  Please continue to make yourself real to us.  Bring peace and joy to our hearts even on days when it seems almost impossible.
In Jesus' Name I pray-Amen

Trusting God,
Alicia